Remember The Children

I grew up with this friend who, though quiet, was a cheerful girl. My friend loved life to its fullest.

     Through the placement marriage at sixteen, she was given to a man old enough to be her Father, possibly Grandfather. I witnessed the life drain from her each time I saw her at any community event.

     I knew there was something “off” about her. I expressed my feelings to my husband who was in daily contact with Warren Jeffs. Rich went to Warren with this concern, who at that time was the leader. Rich was told “The council was aware of the situation and was being handled as “the Lord” see fit.”

      Once I lived in the fear of my fears, now embraced and conquered. I have gone through the traumatic journey, standing up to the FLDS and rescued my own children.

      This desperate mother contacted me, asking about my experience getting my kids back. She had six kids in FLDS community she had not seen for quite some time. On our first conversation, she knew her kids were safely with her mother. Later she contacted me again. She was concerned because they were back with their father, a man who abused her for years before she finally got away. She did not trust her abuser with her kids. They set up an emergency court hearing and I was honored to be apart of this experience.

     I know what it takes for a woman from that culture to be brave enough to stand against the FLDS people. There is such a mind control that one has to reach inward and find the strength we were never allowed to feel.

       My heart reached out, knowing and feeling what this sweet mom was going through.

         I felt extremely blessed to witness this courageous Mother. With unsurpassed courage, I watched her face the greatest fear of her life and stand up against the Leaders of FLDS who have been brainwashing and implanting the fear of God in your soul.

Words can’t express the feelings, the heart-wrenching emotion in the courtroom as this Woman CLAIMED HER OWN POWER, facing her abuser. He confessed to raping and abusing this terrified woman for years. This monster freely admitted he had done the same to some of the children. The abuser confessed he told the leaders and was forgiven for these wrongs. He said, “I’m doing better in this unthinkable abuse.”

      We left the Courthouse with gratitude overflowing! The judge ordered the immediate removal of these children from their abusive father’s home and return to their Loving Mother’s arms.

      Thank GOD! There is mercy! There is justice!

      These rescued children have been adjusting wonderfully despite the trauma. Mom is working hard to give them a life of freedom, love, and happiness.

       If I had one wish, I would plead with the parents of these thousands of abandoned FLDS children. Take this from someone who KNOWS, who has felt and seen firsthand!

      To save your child’s souls as well as your own, FLDS children are left in “God’s care” and loving hands.

       Sadly it is NOT so!

      These children suffer unrighteous, injustice, and inexplicable pain. We parents have covenanted to love, cherish and protect our children.
Little ones are abandoned and left in the hands of people that teach fear and hate. Like robots, they do as commanded.

      No more love! No smiles! Happiness and laughter annihilated.

      Take this from a Mom who was in those shoes, whose children have experienced this. Their souls are begging for you! Mother, Father, siblings, we who should be standing and protecting them. The earth weeps as their tears and prayers go to the ground unheeded!

If I, not-long-ago a heartbroken mother with only the clothes on my back can do it, YOU CAN DO IT!

Listen to Your Heart

     Looking through my pictures and a few letters I still have, my mind ponders. I think of the love we shared. The deepest, heartfelt connection. The kindest, loving, most genuine man I’ve ever known. “To know him is to love him.” I knew Rich better than anyone else in the whole world. My heart talked to his. I think about what we went through together, among other things the greatest being six magnificently beautiful miracles. As loving a Dad as any child could have.

   Rich was so courageous, I thought “nothing or no one can break him.”

Slowly, I watched the life squeeze out of him.

 How can love be so strong yet not strong enough? How can you love with your whole heart and suddenly walk away?  How can anyone have that much power? How was anything stronger than the covenants and promises.

    “It” happened so subtly. Piece by tiny piece, using 99 truths to one lie. Taking one truth and manipulating it. “You are the Fool and the Devil laughs.” Caught up in the power of the “one man”.

Having given away your own power, you have none left. Having given him your heart, you no longer feel.

Child- “Mom, I can’t pray.”

Mother- “Why my child”

Child- “Whenever I close my eyes to pray, all I see in my mind is Warren Jeffs.”

This is true! This is real! I have been in “those shoes” when the only thing I had left was listening to my heart, oh what a beautiful freedom that is!

I pray our loved ones can have the strength to be delivered from what they don’t know holds them bound.