Tender Moments

This picture is so much more than what’s visible with the naked eye, its a replica of

  “Mother and Daughter Triumph” 

IMG_20160313_184405It’s hard to imagine that only six short months ago, this sweet little princess was still troubled and angry.

I was separated from her when she was almost three. She was a happy, sparkly little girl, who loved life and touched the hearts of all she came in contact with.

Two years, five months, three days later….

I was reunited with a terror-stricken, angry stranger who shrank in fear at the thought of her own mother touching her. It would be nearly eight months later when I would get my first stiff hug from my precious baby.

Fifteen months later, after much patience, heart wrenching experiences, and an excessive amount of sequestered tears, I was able to have a heart to heart talk with my now six year old daughter.

“Mommy I have something in my mind I can’t get out. I love you, Mommy. What they told me is not right, but it comes to my mind all the time,” she said as she climbed up beside me in bed for the first time in nearly three years.

“What is it princess?”

“They told me you tried to kill me when I was in your tummy.”

An enormous emotion shot like a whirlwind through my entire being!

“It’s OK mommy,” she continued. “I know you didn’t because you love us, and I know a mother would never do that.”

A deep sigh escaped her little soul as she finally was able to let it out…..

“I feel so much better now. It feels like my heart is free.”

Once again I struggled to beat down this ugly dragon that tried to overpower my soul. ANGER! HATE! RESENTMENT! I think I could almost kill someone!! I knew these feelings all too well since the day of August 26, 2014. I learned first hand what was being enforced by the ghoulish FLDS leaders, and the damage done to innocent children.

 

One thought on “Tender Moments

  1. Blue J says:

    I admire you so much! I know that I wasn’t really close with your family, but I have distant memories. Memories that I enjoy. I can’t wait to meet you and my cousins again.

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